Update on about me for those who don't know me as well

My favorites
Colors: Red, Green, Blue
Bands/Singers: Christina Aguilera, All American Rejects, Evanescence, The Pussycat Dolls, Katherine McPhee, Carrie Underwood, Faith Hill, Kelly Clarkson, Rihanna, Beyonce, Jessica Simpson (sometimes), Nick Lachey, Nickleback, Bon Jovi, Fergie, Kat DeLuna, Black Eyed Peas
Movies: The Simpsons movie!, Pirates of the Caribbean, Titus, Hope Floats, Dr. Quinn, Monster in law, US Marshalls, Volcano, Crocodile Dundee, The Notebook, The Replacements, Grumpy Old Men 1 and 2, White Chicks, Hollywood homicide, Phantom of the Opera, The Mummy 1 and 2, Red eye, Enough, 13 going on 30, Twister, Quigley Down under, Man of the house, Without a paddle and The Fugitive
Actors/Actresses: Tommy Lee Jones, Paul Hogan, Brendan Fraser, Harrison Ford, Johnny Depp, Orlando Bloom, Tom Selleck, Rob Shneider, Jennifer Lopez, Rachel McAdams, Rachel Weiz, Jennifer Garner, Keira Knightley, Jane Seymour, Jessica Alba
TV shows: Friends, Cops, America’s Most Wanted, American Idol, ER, House, Bones, Smallville
Restaraunts: Los Hermanos, Chilies, Olive Garden, Rising crust pizza
Food: Anything Italian like spaghetti, pizza, fettuccine, anything Mexican like taco, nachos, burritos. Chocolate cake, m&m cookies, burnt almond fudge ice cream, mind chocolate chip ice cream, vanilla ice cream with chunks of reeses peanut butter cup mixed in, peach cobbler, apple crisp, avocado milkshakes
Time of day: When Marty comes home from work
Authors: Anita Stansfield, Rachel Ann Nunes, Jenny Hansen, Michelle Ashman Belle, Betsy Brannon Green, Clair Poulson (yes I know, they are all LDS authors)
What I love: My hubby, kids, my house, my family, friends, money (when I have it), people who don’t hate me, not being judged, not being lectured, being LDS, neighbors, singing, making people happy, being a brat (hehe), reading, cleaning
What I hate: people that hate me, people that drive too slow, being in a hurry, yucky food, when my kids are being bad, when I’m feel like I have to do something I don’t want to do, when I don’t feel loved, the color orange, my weight, my health.
Foods I hate: Sushi!!! Squash, Most Chinese food, Anything so deep fried it’s dripping grease (yuck), jalapeños
My habits: Picking at my nails, speaking before thinking, not eating, picky with what I eat, squinting, being too loud
My goals: To be a millionaire, to have my dream house within 10 years, to go to Hawaii, Australia, and somewhere tropical, to be a better person
My heroes: My Grandma and Grandpa Brewer, they were my best friends, and without them I don’t feel whole. Marty is also my hero because he loved me when it seemed no one else did, and brought out the best in me. He gave me the life I have now and made me happier then I have ever been in my life.
About meMiddle name-I don’t have a middle name
Maiden name-Brewer
What I drive-Plymouth Breeze 1999
Pets-A black lab named Nila, a white lab named Adalea, and a white cat named Lucy
What I do now-I work at Dentrix y'all! Oh wait sorry "Henry Schein".... my bad.
What I want to be-A famous singer and actress, a news anchor, dancer, photographer, medical examiner, interior designer.
Natural Hair color-Dark brown
Eye color: Hazel
Birthday-November 1 1981
How I met Marty-We met in high school and never really thought much of each other but after becoming good friends started liking each other a lot and he asked me to go the Sweethearts Dance at school, and that was the first time he kissed me, and the rest is history, we dated steadily since then, got married on August 5, 2000, and had two kids named Alexander Nicholas, and Mikaila Janette. And in case anyone is wondering he is the best husband in the entire world and no one can have a husband as wonderful as him.

Rainy Day

I am just going to babble nonsense for a while. I don't really have anything specific to talk about, I just need to write something down since I haven't in a while. It's raining.....finally. Everytime we have had a "statewide" storm in Utah, Pleasant Grove never gets anything, and it makes me so mad cuz I like the thunderstorms and the rain and all that. Hey who doesn't like free grass watering? So far no thunder or lightning, but hopefully soon. I haven't done much today. Just hung around the house being bored and very lazy. I don't care if things need to get done, I want to be lazy so I am going to be lazy. I can clean tomorrow. Sometimes it just overwhelms me too much to think about all that needs to get done in this house. I am overwhelmed by everything right now. No matter how much I try to make things better in life it always turns around and smacks me in the face. Our finances have gotten worse and so we sold our beautiful SUV to pay bills, and the next thing I know, my car has broke down, my tooth breaks, and a few other things that make it so it's not so easy to keep a hold of that money made from the SUV. Marty and I have been desperatly searching for second jobs, but so far nothing, so we are sitting here, worrying, and nothing is happening. It kind of sucks. I miss singing regularly, but at the same time I don't cuz it was stressful. I miss my kitten I loved so much who we had to give away cuz we couldn't afford her care and food. I miss my grandma who has been gone for about 5 years. I miss going to her house for cookies, ice cream and to just hang out and feel her awesome love. I miss memories that I will never get to experience again. I am kind of getting baby hungry. I miss the sweet smell of babies and their cute faces. The kids are growing so much and one day they won't be small enough for me to kiss their cheeks, and tickle, and hear their little voices and watch them do the stupidest things and say the funniest things. It kind of sucks that I won't be having any more kids, but also not, cuz it's a lot of work. I just need something fulfilling. I am at a standstill. Not moving forward and not moving backwards (not that I would want to go backwards but you get the idea). This whole year has been like this. I really hope that next year shows some potential to change my life in a way that I have always wanted it to, in a good way. I want to go forward, to feel like I am accomplishing something. I want to sing and feel great about it. I want to raise my kids so they will grow up better people and so we will be best friends. I want to not have to worry about bills, and about not having enough money, and not getting second jobs. I want my marriage to marty to keep being the best thing that has ever happened to me. Not that I doubt that, but I felt like putting it in. I want to make good friends who will always be there for me, and not make me feel low and weak, and who won't stab me in the back. I want to find out who I really am, and to feel good about the person I find myself to be. I want just all good things to happen, to make up for a sucky 2007 year. But I guess it could get worse, I should not complain. Just a rainy mood to match the rainy afternoon. I do like my life. I do have good friends, a house, a great marriage, and two great kids. But sometimes you just wish things were still better. It's human nature.

Sick as a dog

Ok, so i have been down with the worst flu I have ever had in my life since Thursday of last week, and still have it. My kids had it too but thankfully they got over it before I did, cuz it really sucked taking care of their puke and trying to get over my sickness too. And I had to go to work with it too. Sheesh! It better go away by Wednesday cuz I am going camping and I am very excited. I am taking lots of Vitamin C and Silver to get better but so far it's being stubborn and won't go away. It's really bad guys. DO NOT GET IT! You will wish you had died or something. So yeah, besides that everything has been ok. Work is busy but fun, and I like working with my sister. She is so awesome. She is my favorite person in the world, well, besides marty cuz he's all that and a bag of yummy potato chips. I like saying that, I don't know why. So who all liked my cookies? You better say something good about them or I will never make you guys any ever again (for those of you at Dentrix). K, I am going to go and rest, cuz I am still sick and I want to sleep. Bye

Awesome trip!

So for Memorial Day weekend me, marty and the kids went to Lavan Canyon, and it was sooooo cool. I had so much fun! I don't think I have had so much fun camping before. First, the area was gorgeous! I took so many pictures I ran out of space on my camera. We went with my sister, her hubby and son, and camped with her in laws and their friends. There was probably 20 people there. The first night we just set up and hung out, and went fishing later that night. I love fishing, it is soo fun, except for when you are standing there for 30 minutes with no bites and then marty casts out and immediatly gets a fish. Grrrrr. He caught 2 fish that night, but we let them go after catching them. The 2nd one died though. We were planning on keeping it, because it was really hurt from the hook, but then it kept wiggling, so we tossed it back in the water and it died on impact, and floated away so we just had to let it go. haha. Anyway, so we hung out at the camp fire till late and had a lot of fun talking and making fun of Keith (my sisters bro-in-law) who is very awesome, and we all love to tease him. I totally love Debra's in laws, they are sooo much frickin fun! I told them I was adopting them as my own, cuz they are cool. Anyway, so the next day we went hiking, Marty and the guys were gone for 5 hours, and after that we went 4-wheeling. That was the best part of the trip. We were probably gone for 4 hours 4 wheeling, and going up these huge hills and oh my gosh, if I don't get a 4 wheeler soon, I am going to die, cuz that was the coolest thing ever. I have gone 4 wheeling before, but this was way more fun. And of course, Keith had to go out of his way to run over poor defenseless rattlesnakes, and jack rabbits with his 4 wheeler, but again, it was way fun. Keith has this dog named Gus and he looks and acts like a little deer. I swear, he really is. He has deer ears, deer hair and he bounces around like one too. It is so cool. I love that dog. Alex and Mikaila had so much fun too. Alex made a new friend, and followed him everywhere, and Mikaila hung on her new "Grandma and Grandpa Church". I think this was the coolest trip we have ever taken. Marty had so much fun fishing, hiking, and 4 wheeling with me, that we didn't even want to go home. But unfortunetely we had to leave cuz we both have work tomorrow. But we will be going back. So yeah, that was a nutshell account of our trip. Oh, and my nephew ate a worm.. EW!

Ok

So not much has been going on, but technically I can't say that because I have been so busy i don't know what to do with myself. Don't know how to explain it. I have just been trying to live life, and be happy. Last week I was busy helping my sister in law with her singing for the Miss P.G. pageant. It went pretty good. She won 4th place in the pageant so I did my part. Yay! I was also planning marty's birthday party on Friday and it kept me busy enough. It was a good party though. You missed out if you didn't show up. And yeah. Just getting on. The kids are doing well, marty's doing well. I miss singing, and being normal and lazy but what can ya do? I told my neighbor the other day that I was so stressed that we should to go to a bar somewhere and get rip roarin drunk and pick up cute guys just to take our minds off things. haha. She thought it was a great idea. She wants me to try margaritas. haha. Don't worry I didn't and won't, but it will still fun to laugh about it. Really. I miss my friends, Sherry and Courtney who are living far far away and I can't go giggle with them the way we used to and I need it right now. Love you guys! Who wants to go out and do stupid things to make us laugh hysterically and have fun just becuz? Sigh! I need a life. haha. I am trying to plan something fun for Spring Break but Marty is being difficult in the process and won't let me have fun with the plans. I just want to go camping, somewhere where it's not going to rain, and Marty doesn't really want to drive that far away where it's not going to be raining. Sigh! I really just need to have some good fun. I hate being bored, and not having anyone to talk to that is older then 5 years old during the day. I went walking with friends last night and about killed myself cuz they are in shape and I am not, so I keeled over, but not in the literal sense. Hehehe, we went to my sisters house house on Sunday and had dinner, and watched Out Cold, so very funny, and there was something that my sisters brother in law said that still makes me giggle everytime I think about it, so i guess I just need to keep thinking about it to make me laugh. We were eating fajitas and he said he liked it when sour cream came out of his burrito. I think I snorted out half of what was in my mouth, choked down the rest and laughed for about 10 minutes straight. Very hilarious. So yeah, that is what has been going on. Oh, and THE FREAK IS LEAVING.....WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!, who wants to celebrate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! See ya!

Not much

So nothing much has been going on since my last post. The last week has been kind of uneventful. Marty went on a campout with the scouts on Friday to Dougway or whatever it's called. I really hate it when he goes away overnight. I don't like being alone at night. It scares me. Plus, having him gone just makes everything feel empty. So on Saturday while waiting for him to get back I ran a few errands, like taking my dog in to get spayed. Haha. The dog that got her pregnant before, keeps coming around, and I do not want another contribution (he doesn't even pay child support) :) so we finally got it done. She is so miserable though. It makes me feel bad. She has to wear that stupid collar that looks like a satalite, and keeps running into things cuz she can't see things as well with that thing on. Poor thing. But we got rid of all the puppies except the one that we were already planning on keeping. It's such a relief, we don't have a million puppies running around, but I miss them a ton. Saturday we went to Chilies for dinner, and it was like a family reunion when we didn't even know that other family was there. We saw my cousin there, and my sister was there with her in laws so we went and sat with them and it was so much fun. I love hanging out with people that have a great sense of humor. I love laughing it is such a relief. Then we went to see Blades of Glory at the theatres, and oh my gosh me and marty were laughing so hard we just about peed our pants. That was the most hilarious movie I have ever seen in my life! I can't wait for it to come out on DVD so I can watch it over and over again. Then on Sunday we did some yard work and cleaned the house a little. It was a relaxing day but also full of fun. I love our neighbors. They are like family. I have so much teasing my neighbor Vince about his age (he's 40) and him and his wife Ella are just awesome people. So yeah that is what has been going on. I have been in a better mood lately, but I have still been struggling with getting my singing voice back, and getting rid of my stupid nausea. ( no, I am not pregnant!) The only good thing about it is I don't eat as much so I lose weight, but that makes marty mad cuz he thinks I am starving myself but I'm really not, I just don't like food that much. Plus, I sometimes do things to make him fake mad cuz it's fun to have him yell at me in a fun way. That's the way we fight. It's never real, but we pretend to just to spark things up. heheh. Also yesterday we hung out with Marty's brother and his girlfriend, and it was really fun. They came over for dinner and we laughed about old times and he tried to steal my baby puppy Adalea, cuz he wants one but I told him he couldn't have her cuz that's my baby, and he will just have to steal someone elses. Haha. I really like marty's brother Nick, he is hilarious! And his girlfriend is awesome. Lets just hope that it stays good. So yeah, I guess I am done. See ya later!

A new me

Ok, so I have been reevauating somethings and I have decided to really make things better for myself instead of waiting for them to happen. I can't depend on other people to make me feel good about myself, and I can't worry about their opinions or I will never be happy. So I am doing things my own way. And you know what, it feels so good. It finally feels like I don't have a weight on my shoulders, I can finally say i am honestly feeling good about things again. I got my ears pierced again yesterday for the second time, and it's kind of cool but one ear hurts, but oh well. Also, I am going to start wearing the clothes that i want to wear instead of hiding everything. And it's spring! I am just feeling so much better. I quit having contact with the people that made me feel bad about myself, and I am finally doing things for myself. Things are looking up. Whoo Hoo!